She said it perfectly. Acceptance of Self is key.

What I am is what I am.

I am not aware of many things in this life I lead.
I am however always held responsible for my actions.

Death is never any easy feat.

I stand at a crossroads, to move ahead or to look behind.

I somehow always find myself wishing I could change the past.
If I Had that power though I would never learn. I would Never grow.

I sincerly hope that throughout my 20 years I have atleast learned that there are certain Un-controllable things.

I can't Make anyone do anything without their consent.
I can't control the weather or time.

I can control myself. I can decided what to do when faced with an unfavorable situation.

So Why do I always run to the fimilar?

Because the past is comforting because to expect the future is so unsettling.

To hope. To want. To expect.

It always leads to a 2 way street. Pass or Fail. Win or lose.

I just hope that somewhere that line becomes blurred and I can tap into my intincts.

If I am not made to love. So be it.

Love is a gift from aphrodite.

I have never met her.

I have just been feeding on second hand emotions on a beaten path.

I will love again.

But if the sun rises, or the moon falls, I will still breathe. and If I love. I will love.

But I can live. and I can Love.

But mostly I am just learning to live.

Valerie Nicole. Age 20. 7/11/07... In a state of mind. I am in a state of hope.